bloom & breathe

LYRICS BY KEVIN DYE

bloom

i’ve destroyed a perfect path
broken by what i could not forget
so i’ll become everything i hate
and i will turn forever in my grave

if we’re born with the burden of a heart we’ll never mend
and we live at the feet of mountains we cannot ascend
and we’ll die with regret for what we wouldn’t let begin

then i’ll cast my righteous skin and damn what remains
until the curse is coursing through my veins
and i’ll bloom and breathe, awake to what we’ll never be
breed disease to tear apart a memory
but i can’t forget to remember

desolation isn’t real if there’s nothing left to feel

we’re all born bearing the weight of time
we all live clamoring to survive
and we all die longing to feel alive


persist in delusion

you meant to start again
without a single shred of doubt
and offer a fix you knew was fleeting
the failure in you repeating

you brought upon the end
in faith you’d never be the same
but you can’t erase yourself in silence
and still be awakened by it

don’t cry when everything that you love
falls apart and all you had is gone

tell yourself to let go
of what you can’t control
and all of this time you said you wouldn’t
yearn for a life you know you shouldn’t
but all that you’ve ever known is breaking
because of the reason you’ve forsaken

don’t cry when everything that you love
falls apart and all you had is gone

all we had is a lie, come to find out

not my blood

here’s my chance to break contract, to exist without the lie
that we’ll live to be something more than feeling deep inside
but i’m worth only numbers for the bearing of your pride
and i only live to be alive, i only live to be alive

you don’t know a god damn thing about me but you still tear out my heart
like you know that everything i have within me is just waiting to start again

here we will conform to all the faults of the past
where you reap what we sow and our ideas aren’t ours to have

someday you’ll get what we deserve
the profit you had never earned
will be the deficit you cannot comprehend
and as you rake in your return
we’ll loathe the lesson never learned
that bottom lines won’t ever satisfy demand
for what could have been


light the first page

i once dreamt that happiness was written in us all
and every line was beautiful and infinite withal
now i’m bound with emptiness that no one else could know
and all my words are stolen like the life i led before

and every piece of me is scribbled
on a note that no one cared to read
sentenced to be free of any meaning
and i can only come to be on pages
torn from me long before they’re worn
and i’ll die before i’m born


the thing that would save you

i remember thinking how this medicine would be the thing that would save you
and now i’m finding out it’s never bringing back the person i once knew
so will you look inside and see the life they’ve buried deep in your conscience
and learn they couldn’t hide the will to be the everything for yourself that you’ve been to me

you won’t cut deep enough to scar the person you are
and who you are is more than voices in your head are drowning out

and here you are again, the same existence flawed by what you could not be
and i have never been so terrified of losing someone i love to their own disease
but i can’t be the one who can save you from yourself

don’t you break your heart, i don’t want to see you grind your pulse to a halt
you can’t come this far just to never know if this was ever your fault, because it never was

you won’t cut deep enough to scar the person you are
and who you are is more than voices in your head are drowning out
 

nothing you’ll miss

i don’t know who you are or how you live with this
and now only sleep will bring you back to me again
just like everyone who sins
you’re just buying time before the end begins

i don’t know who i am or how i live this lie
and not even sleep can bring me back to you this time
because it’s all i’ve ever been
i’m just getting by before the end begins

at last the loneliest of them

darkness let us leave
common and quiet
without even a mark
daylight let us see
we’ve already lost it
everything we are

at each dawn we resign to a setting sun
and we sleep through the light when the morning comes
because no one held the flame of the curious
and we’ve all lost the thing that would save us from ourselves

compelled to cast from our minds
the remnants left of our kind
the day the message was sent
when we saw infinity end

darkness let us leave common and quiet
daylight let us see we’ve already lost it

now we sing the song that never came to be
the constant hum of meaningless defeat
the sound of thought deserting me to die
the fading path to ever knowing why
a thousand ends with nowhere to begin
the pull of death awakening within
i am at last the loneliest of them
but i won’t repent for what i’ve done
and i can’t forget what i’ve become


born dead

we all roam the same aimless road
to closure we’ve all been told
will burn with the most blinding light
that we never could see why
we all die longing to feel alive

someday we’ll close our eyes
with no one to tell goodbye
while clung to the faintest of hope
we’ll gasp at the end alone

i can’t break the hands of time
i’ll never take back what was mine
we all die longing to feel alive
 

marrow

i’m more alive than i’ve ever been in my whole life
knowing why you’ll always leave me dead inside
i want the pain of loneliness in me again
i want the end, i want to know where i begin

so break my pride, i know that it’ll be alright
i’m just fine knowing that we’re going to die
because all i need is everything to change in me
all i need is everything i’ll never be
 

low

i thought i was meant for something more than where i reside
in the space between the cracks along the floor
and i couldn’t know what i’d become buried deep inside
in a place that i’ve never been before

i’m losing whatever made me breathe
whatever made me feel alive
and i’m losing whatever made me dream
of anything but fear in my heart
i’m losing me

in a hole far to deep to let go
i am growing my last hope
down so low, you can’t know what it’s like
to not know what you want anymore
i’ve found a home in rain and loam
an escape from the flowers we’ve grown on
and i’ll explode far before we could know
what what it’s like to not want anymore

i’m losing whatever made me breathe
whatever made me feel alive
and i’m losing whatever made me dream
of anything but fear in my heart
and i’m losing whatever i believed
would carry me along in the dark
i’m losing me

down this low you can’t know what it’s like
to not know what you want anymore


again at the beginning

i was born a well laid path
as sure as all the best drawn maps
and i pioneered my way
while the world around me crumbled and decayed

and i'm afraid i am the architect
of all that a moment's haste has laid to waste
here in the rubble of my regret i'll rebuild again
in time every part will be where we will intend

from the ruins of a long condemned design
i will form the plan to reconstruct this life
i will live to be something
we’ll rebuild again and this time every part will be where we will intend.