PARALLEL LIVES

LYRICS BY KEVIN DYE

 

forget

coming down and along, love of mine
we will always remain intertwined
adrift in the rush of blood to our heads
and filling our guts like butterfly nets
and torn at the seam, we won’t forget

and every now and again a passerby
will remind me of you and you of I
and knit in our hearts is all we have left
a tapestry hung of memories kept
that we can’t unweave and we can’t forget

sew the fibers of our pride
wept the current from our eyes
empty canvas painted white
we lead only parallel lives

 

habit

pull you in like the smoke from a first drag
feel you burning like fire in my chest
all of you lingering in light before I breathe you in again
we are all that I swore would never happen
and still you devour me
like a habit embraced
like a burden kept close
I draw you in me
and let you go
love only lingers if you let it go

 

eyes

so who’s to say that we had sailed the roughest seas
before we even knew the meaning of defeat?
while you were half awake and I was half asleep
I rode a current toward the end of you and me

and at the long, contrived horizon of our life
I know it’s oh so wrong, but her eyes are what I saw
leading me astray

and I guess I am never going to see where the empty bottle leads
and I know I am never going to be the person that you saw in me
through those eyes

 

shiver

shiver, shake at the thought of it
buckle and break in the face of the things you’ll miss
quiver, quake like your trembling lips
one mistake by the grace of your fingertips
can’t decide if I’m done deciding
if a feeling defines me
if it’s never about what I want
and it’s about what I need

shiver, shatter all that you have left
let regret be the noose tied around your neck
quiver, now’s the only chance you’ll get
don’t be swayed by what you have to say about it
I’ve decided I’m done deciding
if a feeling defines me
if it’s never about what I want
and it’s about what I need
so I take another step into your direction
and become the break in our boundary
and I feel a slip as I loose my grip
on our love and learn as long as I breathe
you’re what I need

 

house and home

out on the corner of my favorite street
is a house and a home crumbled down to my feet
the window I prayed I’d look out of someday
broken like my dream and the glass swept away
and I’ll remember it all of my life
but I’ll never know what was inside

with wonder I wandered amongst the debris
and imagined the moments that had yet to be
like watching the wallpaper fall from the wall
and the quaint conversations we’d have in the hall
I cried in the silence of words never formed
from the mouth of a child that wouldn’t be born
then walked through the doorway and out on my own
to a house on a street that would never be home

and I’ll remember you all of my life
but I’ll never know what’s inside

 

empty canvas

I see myself in you, reflected
you try to reproduce what I did
you trace my pattern trying to be candid
but all that you create is not quite right
you draw your hands across an empty canvas
your fingers paint a scene so dull and lifeless
and all the color worn from me is pointless
because all you’ll ever be is black and white
and I’ve become your something
in a photograph of nothing
left hanging in the dark
and I am always with you
even if you didn’t want to
you’ve framed my work of art
and even though the negative was cut and replaced
I’ll develop into what cannot be erased
and you’ll develop into nothing
and your whole life, forever spent
to be what hasn’t happened yet

 

color worn

you fold the fabric of your lie
and hang it up on a clothesline
to never wear again
while I sew the fibers of my pride
to cover me in the afterlife
to bury my own skin
and all you are is anonymous
and all I am is another one

as you roam the streets like it’s your right
and break the windows to try and find
another for your sin
I paint my home on the outside
remind myself that I shouldn’t mind
the color worn within
and all you are is anonymous
and all I am is another one

oh what I’ve become in the face of doubt
a seamstress mending a beggar’s shroud
before I succumb to the thread I’m bound
I’ll tear the life from your open mouth

lifeless like this, trying to pretend nothing happened
in fear that you’ll walk into someone’s garden
all while I lament that all they are is another one

oh what I’ve become in the wake of doubt
a seamstress rending a beggar’s shroud
alone I succumb to the thread I’m bound
I find you rapt in a bed you found
if only not to fear you now
I tear the life from your open mouth and take it
I need to erase you...

and now can you see the color worn in me?
the more that you bleed, the more I am free.

 

fade

I want an eden of flowers
I want the beauty to blossom here in bloom
but don’t want to grow them from our wounds
I want to last in the hour
of summer heat when the sun beams on your face
but can’t shake the cold of winter days

so the petals wilt away
and the blue skies dull to grey
and I wish I hadn’t left our love to fade

I want to live without aging
I want to swim in the fountain of our youth
but I know I’ll wane inside of you
I want to love you forever
I want to know like the always in your eyes
but I only know how to say goodbye

so our bodies wilt away
and our flush skin dulls to grey
and I wish I hadn’t left our love to fade

 

penny

saw a penny in a stream
shining bright from underneath
but you never thought yourself a thief
so you went ahead and let it be

saw an apple in a tree
stole away among the leaves
had a thought that you would plant the seed
but you couldn’t seem to bury me

the copper coin will drift away
the fruit will fall to rot someday
you won’t recall a word I say
I guess it really doesn’t matter

when I’m gone are you going to miss me?
are you even listening?
do you even care about anything at all?

I should have known you’d break my heart
I should have seen it from the start

 

left behind

are you going to take his name
and is it going to feel the same?
I know that you still believe
you’ll be coming back to me
smile in the mirror of mine
even though your love is blind
stare into the break of dawn
and tell yourself you can’t move on
but how long can you wait for happiness again
wrapped beneath the warmth of his skin?
love is but a pain that only we assign
and even in a perfect life, we still die
we don’t ascend to the sky
we don’t float toward the light
we are gone but we’re not forgotten
and how long can you wait for happiness again
wrapped beneath the warmth of his skin?
love is but a pain that only we assign
and even in a perfect life, we still die
so are you going to take his name
and is it going to feel the same?

 

parallel lives

we stand beside one another
decided to never be close
we learn the language of lovers
a stranger to all that we know
in excess and example
how novel the one we regard
though we long to resemble
we only become who we are

we stay entwined with each other
but couldn’t be further apart
we die denying the flutter
of fervor we feel in our hearts
how uncommon the ember
of memory burned and forgot
left to always remember
that we couldn’t be what we’re not
and all we seem to be
are parallel lives caught crossing.